I read a scripture today. It stopped me cold. If that has ever happened to you, then you know what I mean when I say, “God was speaking to me.” The words bothered me. So much so that I couldn’t stop thinking about them all day.
For you refuse my discipline and treat my words like trash. Psalm 50:17 NLT
A few days ago I was telling a friend of a frustration. My friend gently said, “I am reminded of Job when God asked him, ‘Who do you think you are?’ It sounds like you are in God’s face asking ‘What do You think You are doing?’”
I didn’t really hear what my friend was saying until today. When I read that scripture I realized anew that every time I question God I am robbing myself of the results of His discipline or His blessing, whichever He is sending my way. Instead of embracing what He has brought into my life today and letting whatever it is bless me, I’d begun to question and second guess Him. I haven’t yet found the scripture that says, “When you don’t like or understand what is going on in your life, come before Me and demand answers.” Although that is a slight exaggeration, it is what I was doing. I was refusing to surrender to what He was providing on that particular day.
God tells me in His word that what blesses Him is when I praise Him. When I’m thankful. When I accept whatever He provides as His perfect will for me and trust Him. I know all of this. So how did I end up where I was in God’s face questioning Him? I believe it was because I was treating His Words like trash.
That may sound harsh, but as I thought about it all day, I realized that since this adventure has begun I’ve spent more time with God, but less time in His Word. I’ve spent much more time talking to Him, but a lot less time letting Him talk to me.
I don’t know about yours, but my trash, if it could speak, would probably tell you it feels very neglected. Once I throw something away I don’t ever think about it again. And that’s the way I had begun treating my Bible. Take it out for church and then back into the cupboard as soon as church was over.
It’s amazing how quickly we can end up off track. But even more amazing is how instantly He can get us back in line. It happened as soon as I opened the cupboard and let Him out.