I’ve always thought I would enjoy working in a grocery store. Stocking shelves, for some reason, seems especially appealing. I think it’s that little bit of OCD in me that feels gratified by making something look nice. Today I volunteered at the Access food give away in a small town near me and I was given the snack section. What fun I had lining snacks up to look appealing and orderly.
I had a conversation recently with someone close to me and we were talking about Autism. We both agreed that as we go through this life and learn about different areas of dysfunction, we have to admit that we see a little bit of all of it in ourselves. It may make you uncomfortable to think that of yourself, but I’m on a journey to discover my true self. And that is one of my discoveries, well, not really a discovery because I’ve known this for a long time. I have just a touch of all of the well-known dysfunctions. That blend is what makes me who I am.
I accept all of my little idiosyncrasies and the only dysfunction I had a temporary struggle with was Co-Dependency. The more I learned about it, the more I realized I was it. It can strangle relationships, shipwreck marriages and always puts undue pressure on others. But what I’ve come to believe is that Co-dependency is exactly the way we are created to be, it’s our natural state. The problems arise when we look to someone other than the God who created us and longs for us to depend on Him. That role can’t be filled by any other. So our only options are to put all of our faith, hope and trust in the God who will never disappoint us, or teach ourselves to be something other than what we were purposed for.