If the step is a bold one, it is taken with fear and trepidation and it will be followed by second guessing, questions and more fear. You’ll feel like Peter, stepping out onto the water. It was something he had never done and he was filled with doubt that it was possible. But he looked into the eyes of his Master and when he heard “Come to Me” he could do nothing else. I’ve heard that call. The call to leave the safety of a life lived inside boundaries and step out into the unknown. It’s exciting, exhilarating and at the same time terrifying.
The natural mind cannot comprehend how this can be possible; to live without an income and have no place to call home. To lock eyes with my Savior and walk out onto the water with Him may sound ludicrous to many. I’ve talked to some that have done this very thing. I’ve never heard one of them say they had regrets. My excitement trumps the fears and misgivings that try and take me captive a thousand times a day.
This is day one. I’m going to be living in my 19ft RV conversion van and going where the wind blows me. I know the winds are directed by the One who created me and knows the plans He has for me. I also know that He promises that if we draw near to Him He will draw near to us. Drawing near to Him. That is my goal.
I believe that as I get closer and closer to Him I will become more and more me. Not the person my roles have required me to be, but who He created me to be. The object of His affection, He talks about me in Psalm 139. If you haven’t read it lately I challenge you to do so.
I’ve taken my one step and the journey has begun. First setback is that I found out, that in spite of all my care to winterize, I have a water leak. So day two will involve a trip to the RV repair shop. Not what I had planned for the day, but then again isn’t the point of this whole journey to teach me not to plan?
The plans of man are many, but the will of the Lord always prevails.